1) Was 2008 a good year for you?
There were certain things that I am happy about, but I don’t think that this was a particularly good year for me. 

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Hmm. Radiohead and Chicago. 

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Getting depressed about breaking up with Wesley before I realized that it was the right thing to do. 

4) Where were you when 2008 began?
Charlotte. 

5) Who were you with?
Wesley. 

6) Where will you be when 2008 ends?
Rock Hill. 

7) Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
Lauren. 

Did you keep your New Year’s resolution of 2008?
No. I wanted to save money and lose weight. Didnt happen. I think I actually got fatter and poorer. 

9) Do you have a New Year’s resolution for 2009?
The same as above. Haa…. 

10) Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nope, outta love. 

11) If yes, with who?
–

12) If yes, do they know?
–

13) If yes, are you still in love with them?
Enough with the love questions already. 

14) Do you regret it?
Regrets are like big black clouds hanging over you. I don’t regret anything, ever. 

15) Who will you be kissing at midnight?
Jack….. and coke. 

16) Who would you like to be kissing at midnight?
No one. 

17) Who are your favorite new people in your life?
I met a lot of new people this year… Luke.. Dannielle.. are some important ones. 

18) What was your favorite month(s) of 2008?
Hmmm… December has been pretty good. But I would say May was the highlight.

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2008?
Nope.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2008?
Hmm. North Carolina, Tennesse, Kentucky, Indiana, Illinois, Georgia.

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008?
No, thankfully. 

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Sure. 

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2008?
There isn’t one that really stands out. 

24) What was your favorite song from 2008?
Ugh.. I don’t know. That’s a stupid question. 

25) What was your favorite record from 2008?
She and Him?

26) How many concerts did you see in 2008?
Quite a few. Important ones: Radiohead, Wilco, Eisley, She and Him, Avett Brothers

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2008?
Radiohead, duh. 

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2008?
The most out of any year of my life… What can I say; I turned 21. 

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2008?
No..

30) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Ashamed… yes. Regret… no. 

31) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2008?
I lied to myself a lot this year… I think that was the worst. 

32) Did you treat somebody badly in 2008?
Yes. 

33) Did somebody treat you badly in 2008?
Yes. 

34) What is one of the most valuable life lessons you learned in 2008?
If it’s not going to work….. its not going to work..ever. 

35) What is one thing you’d like to change about yourself in 2009?
Take more photos. Become inspired again. 

STOP STAYIN UP SO LATE!!!

36) How much money did you spend in 2008?
too much. I’m left with 20 bucks. 

37) What was your proudest moment of 2008?
Getting over it!

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
Hmm… thinking that I could get back with my ex. 

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something what would it be?
If I changed anything, I don’t know what I’d be like now. 

40) What kept you sane in 2008?
Lauren Fowler. 

41) What are your plans for 2009?
I don’t have many plans yet… I want to save money, visit Daniel and co in Seattle, go to Chicago this summer.. and eventually… by next december… GRADUATE COLLEGE!

just when things are looking down.. theres a moment where you discover something you let yourself forget. these are very important moments. everyone should have a moment like this. 

 

the whole concept of people changing and growing is just a wonderful thing and i’m glad it finally happened to me.

its 5:40am and i still can’t sleep. i can’t sleep because when im lying in my bed i feel really alone and sad. so, i’ll stay up and read or listen to music because i like to control what i’m thinking about. tonight i have read half of miranda july’s “no one belongs here more than you do”. it was a christmas present from my mom. i spend an hour making a mix cd tracklist for annagail only to find out my cd drive in my computer jammed and now i can’t burn her cd. that made me upset so i decided to read some more. then my eyes got tired and i thought i would be able to go to sleep, so i turned off my lamp and put away the book and just layed in my bed for 30 minutes and my eyes weren’t tired anymore. the average human can fall asleep in 7 minutes. so here i am diverting my thoughts again. 

another new year resolution: have a normal sleep schedule. i can’t keep doing this.

 

home for the holidays. it doesn’t really feel like christmas to me, probably because i didnt buy any gifts for anyone because i can’t afford it. 

there are a lot of things that i’m looking forward to improve about myself in the next year. 

- don’t take anything or anyone for granted
- don’t be so lazy
- stop smoking cigarettes
- keep my room clean, as well as the rest of the apartment.
- take more photos, keep a film camera with me at all times.
- most importantly, get a job.  
- pay off credit card debt
- be more frugal
- stop feeling so depressed when i’m alone
- read more books
- be honest
- be healthier
- don’t drink so much
- stop being so rude to strangers (terrible character flaw)
- find a companion to take along on trips and movie marathons.  

the list could go on and on. this year i’m actually going to work on it.  just watch.

did you see those bitches i was dancing with

there are certain things i wish i had control over.

i am so thankful for best friends.

 

who ever you are.

“i think we’re just gonna have to be secretly in love with each other and leave it at that.”

be thankful. 

i’m thankful for:

my mom, fuji neopan, camus, family, best friends, pumpkin beer, being happy, sleep, winter, cigarettes, the new people in my life, and the ones that will always be there.

my body is aching and i’m really cold. 

there is nothing i hate worse than disappointing people. well, it’s more like a fear. 
this is not where i want to be, i don’t want you to see me.